Dear Pop Pop,

When you left this world to be with the good Lord above I had tried to ensure that you left knowing that my heart was safe and protected with someone who loved me like no tomorrow. I wanted you to be proud of me and to know that I had chosen wisely. It’s been two years now and my heart has been riddled with heartbreak. I have been dragged threw my two lowest points and now l am left on my own. I know that my last relationship was nothing that would ever make you proud or happy. I wouldn’t be surprised if it made you turned over in your grave a few times. I am left in pieces and I am slowly stitching myself back together piece by piece.

 I think back to a time where I actually had faith that I could meet a good guy. I always thought that the men I chose to date met the criteria of the good guy. Maybe my problem was that I was dating boys and not men. I am not really sure and am still trying to solve the puzzle. When it comes to dating I feel like I am talking to a brick wall. The males that I am talking to, Men? Boys? Whatever, they are called don’t seem to know what they are looking for. They all seem to want to play games and skimp when it comes to showing interest. Everyday, I lose more and more faith that there is a grounded and humble guy out there for me. However, despite the vicious cycle that I continue to find myself trapped in, all I can think of is you.  I want to thank you. Thank you for being the only person that has left any sense of hope in my heart. 

Thank you for being the only man in my life to show me unconditional love. Because of you, I know how great a man can be and I hope that whoever comes into my life next will be as selfless and loving as you. I hope he is someone that will make you proud and treat your granddaughter with as much love and respect a you. I hope he is someone I know without a doubt will love me and protect me.  Never less, I just want to thank you for being that continuous light in a place that seems so dim. 

Sending lots of love your way!

Your biggest fan and granddaughter,

Morgan <3